In my last letter I mentioned that after 20 years of trying (oh-so desperately trying), I was finally able to make true, real, lasting change on how I related to my body, exercise, food and ultimately myself. Change that actually stuck. I'm talking cellular change kind-of-stuck.

This may feel really big and it can be. But if things just don’t seem to fall in to place – they just won't stick – no matter how hard you are trying, it might be worth asking:

I was in Virginia with my nieces and the oldest turned to me and asked, "Kaka, is this food bad?" She was munching on a chip.

Oof. I felt a giant ping in my gut to answer this question perfectly. Her sponge of a brain, patiently waiting to hear my response.

I was flooded with thoughts and transported back to a time when I believed food was either good or bad, and depending on what I ate, so was I. Strong or weak. Disciplined or lazy.

My answer was simple,